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what a day…

really.. i dont know what is happening today. first of all… yesterday night, i cant sleep, ending up i did not have enough sleep for the day and feeling tired. then back from work, i went for my class 4 driving lesson. make lot of mistake. AND! on the other hand, it’s the instructor fault. he did not teach me other things like when to turn or what to look out for. AND! lastly, he ended the lesson 30mins early! it’s a waste of my money. he end early for? to go home. hack. i cant believe this. when i went for the theory lesson, i heard that it is going to be taken over by a coporate company. i seriously hope after taking over, they will provide quality learning then now. though the fee might be more expansive.

after finishing the driving, went back to my car, and found out i had a fine for not displaying coupons. great! i am now in need of money and i got to spend another $30 bucks for this. keep it coming man. on my way back from the learning centre, my mind was wandering around. i am not concentrating on driving. though i still manage to get home safely. but… my mind wasn’t with me. it was else where…

had been busy and tired this few weeks. think that is all because i need to wake up early in the morning for work. i hate waking up early for work. i will rather wake up 11pm or 12 noon. of cos, there is no work that let you go as and when you like unless you are the boss. that is what i want to be. so i can choose my own timing for work. currently got a job as a TA. so far, not bad. guess it is still under training period. but tomorrow will be the last. hope i get a good school with good hod. make my life easier. who doesnt want their job to be easy?

plan to model my 3d. but did not really started it. cos i am trying to complete lots of my game. reason being, there are lot of sequels for games coming out and i have not finish playing with the old one. and most of it, i had already forget about the story because i played halfway. frustrated with fallout 3 and bioshock. their patch cant be patch properly. bethsoft for fallout 3 have not have a solution until now. as for bioshock, i have emailed them about the problem and currently waiting for 2kgames to reply with help to solve the problem. hopefully it can be patched properly. else if… i am never going to get any original games that said ‘Made in Singapore’. just because the patch doesnt work! do something!

will try to complete my 3d as soon as possible. wanna learn mapping and see the overall outcome of my product. but yesterday night as i was trying to sleep i have new ideas to tweak the model i am currently doing. so i guess i gonna make some changes to it. hopefully it will turn out even better. oh! and my class 4 driving test is on monday. please hope that i can pass it one time because i dont feel like retaking as it is a waste of time and the instructors are not as friendly as they said. or ‘User Friendly’. and wish i can get posted to a good school!

ps. posted another post elsewhere.

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where is my miss lucky???

so what…

So fucking what!

Well, I’ve been to Hastings and I’ve been to Brighton,
I’ve been to Eastbourne too.
So what, so what.
And I’ve been here, I’ve been there,
I’ve been every fucking where.
So what, so what.
So what, so what, you boring little cunt.

Well, who cares, who cares what you do.
Yeah, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you.

Well, I fucked a queen, I fucked fuck,
I’ve even sucked an old man’s cock.
So what, so what.
And I fucked a sheep, I fucked a goat,
I rammed my cock right down its throat.
So what, so what.
So what, so what, you boring little fuck.

Well, who cares, who cares what you do.
And, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you.

And I’ve drunk that, I’ve drunk this,
I’ve spewed up on a pint of piss.
So what, so what.
I’ve had scank, I’ve had speed,
I’ve jacked up until I bleed.
So what, so what.
So what, so what, you boring little cunt.

Well, who cares, who cares what you do.
Yeah, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you, you.

I’ve had crabs, I’ve had lice,
I’ve had the clap and that ain’t nice.
So what, so what.
I fucked this, I fucked that,
I’ve even fucked a school girl’s twat.
So what, so what.
So what, so what, you boring little fuck.

Well, who cares, who cares what you do.
And, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you, you.

So fucking what! Yeah!

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boring and this is one of my favourite song…

so long…

too tired to update recently… everyday came home from work i went for jog, unless it is raining. after my jog i will consume my dinner and about a hour later, i will doze off. i feel that i got so much to accomplish, but i got so little time. i feel that i need to buy a lot of things and save money, but i cant find a full time job. really. anyway, didnt do much these days too. like i said, everyday came home from work just to sleep except from friday nights and saturday nights.

bought halo wars not long ago, but i completed it in like 3 days. haha. just play through the story, will get back to the achievement some other time. playing tomb raider, but i am stuck somewhere now, didnt know where to go. guess i will need help from gamefaqs.com soon. haha. playing suikoden tierkreis on ds now too. very nice, with voices. but hmm.. sometime when some of the character talk real slow, it is really irritating. but so far, story are good.

still looking for job in IT related field. i think it is better for me to work in IT because i can further my knowledge and skills in the field but hopefully i can be an IT trainer in school. i feel that being an IT trainer in school i can have more time to myself and therefore i can redo my portfolio with far better impressive work. and speaking of that… i should really do something about my portfolio now. slack on my 3d modelling on my space craft. now it is not even anywhere near finish. guess i will need to put down everything on this friday night and work on that. hopefully i can finish modelling without texture, then i can further asking yh’s help for mapping. still dont understand the part.

hm… lemme see… what else to update? oh ya! forget to mention that just last week… i pull strain the muscle at my left stomach area instead of my leg! WEIRD! i always thought i am going to injure my leg first but instead it was somewhere else. actually i felt the pain on wednesday morning, when i was at work. but i thought might be some stupid way of sleeping i have that why it hurts. so it didnt bother me much. then on thursday, i feel more pain than on wednesday. cant stretch, cant bend, cant run (i still went to jog on wednesday), BUT can walk. then on thursday evening, i came home, bath and went to bed straight, didnt went for my jog cos of the pain, and didnt take my dinner cos i dont feel like to. then during the night, gosh.. the pain was even more than afternoon. i cant even sleep properly that night. i need to sleep straight and straight only. and friday morning, i woke up and walk.. i feel pain with every step i take. finally, i cant stand the irritation and went to visit the doc and found out just a muscle strain. took some muscle relaxer pills but i am better. went for jog yesterday. skip jogging today because… it’s raining.

and hmm.. now.. i got a feeling, i am missing some important parts right here but… er… alright.. forget it. my stm is getting worst, i will update when i remember.

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leg connected to stomach???

super tired…

so tired these few days that i dont even have the time to update my blog. i realise the earlier i sleep the more tired i feel the next day. guess i am a 怪胎. but i cant try to stay awake till too late also, because i will automatically fall asleep. even when i am sitting infront of my pc, watching anime. cool huh? 叔叔有练过. anyway, these few days nothing much to update too. work, jog, eat, sleep. repeat it for 3 days. oh… yea. forget to mention anime in between. haha. rushing through my one piece, because luffy and crews are fighting cp9 now. and the feeder they have are so long… that i cant wait to see the fight starts. so i am rushing through.

today feel a bit !@#$$%^ because my colleague keep asking me go up and down the building. thought in the end i end up working at the 3rd level. but i dont really like moving around so much. i mean well… after i start my work. just feel very troublesome. and one good thing is that i am doing alone, without another temp, i dont have to clear his left overs. he is really slow… or should i say slacking. that is why he cant finish his share of work on time everytime. though is good to help one another out… but i hate to help one who is not even trying.

talk to joyce today, she say she want to do voluntary work. haha. know her for such a long time, first time i heard her talk about this. any way, i say i will accompany her do if she wants to. and of cos if she dont 嫌弃 me. haha. she ask how come i will want to volunteer, i told her. is because i do too much evil, my horns soon growing on my head, so i better do some good deeds to balance out before it is too late. *evil grin*

still watching one piece, but guess i going to take another quick bath and going to sleep soon. cant take it any more. haha…

ps. i have locked a post in a new blog. you can msn me and ask for the new link, but of cos it depends if i want to give it again. =)

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shuber (tired) man…

aching…

argh… what a sunday. this whole week, i have been feeling ache all over my body. my back in the morning… my leg during the jog… and today… my arms, my back, my leg. even my wrist! it’s not simple muscle pain… i feel pain deep into my bone… i am not sure how to describe it, but this sure wasnt any good feeling. and i am sure i got loads of thing to do on my list. but somehow i couldnt find the motivation to start anything. i could only watch one piece whole day. day in, day out. am i getting useless? i am getting sick of my current work too… everyday doing the same thing. and there isnt anything to do… i have to act that i have lot of things to do. which means 1 single piece of thing i have to do for a few hours. make me sleepy. i rather be a driver, delivering goods all over singapore. make my days more colorful and less boring.

trying to look for job too. i am looking but i HATE people messaging me and ask why i have not look for job. I AM LOOKING FOR JOB! I AM! AND STOP ASKING! ALL OF YOU MUST UNDERSTAND THAT THE TIME NOW IS DIFFERENT IT IS DIFFICULT TO FIND A JOB! SO STOP ASKING WHY I HAVE NOT FIND ANY WHEN YOU KNOW WHAT I REPLY YOU! IT IS VERY IRRITATING! VERY INDEED! and because i am now working temp, so lot of jobs wont even consider me. just because they want immediate position to be fill. SO PLEASE! GO RATION ALL THESE OUT BEFORE YOU START ASKING ME WHY I HAVE NOT LOOK FOR A PERM JOB! UNDERSTAND?!?!?!?!

had another crazy idea this whole week, it is a robot for my web and which also too represent myself. thought of the color combination already even though i did not have the basic idea of what it will look like. for now… i only have actually thought about it’s head. still doing more modification to it head before i want to start on his body parts. i have also thought of what i should have on it back. haha… might be actually be very interesting when it turn out in 3d. i am still trying… might drawing after this… or i should say sketch after this.

ARGH! I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL HAPPEN TO ME TODAY. JUST BY TYPING A BLOG ENTRY, I CAN MAKE SO MANY TYPOS ERROR! EITHER I PRESS 2 LETTERS AT THE SAME TIME OR I TYPE THE WRONG LETTER OR I MISPELL A WORD! WHAT THE HACK! DAMN IRRITATING!! ARGH!!! KILL ME!

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irritating enough…

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爱要怎么说出口。。。

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说怎么说都是错
你对我说离开就会解脱
试着自已去生活
试着找寻自我别再为爱蹉跎
只是爱要怎么说出口我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁
叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么做怎么做都是错
如果要我把心对你解剖
只要改变这结果
我会说我愿意做我受够了寂寞

只是爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁
爱要怎么说出口我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么说怎么说都是错
你对我说离开就会解脱
试着自已去生活
试着找寻自我何必为爱蹉跎

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真的教我，爱要怎么说出口。。。

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long summary…

let’s see when was my last update… hmm… 4 days ago. that’s long. anyway, on 27 february, nothing happen much. so i think i will skip that day. on 28, my mum woke me up in the afternoon around 1145h and ask if i am going to pan island driving centre to pay for my class 4 & 5 lesson. so i woke up, wash up and bath, then just i about to rush out, my mum ask if i want to swim later. so i went back into my room, pack up my swim stuff, and i think i could jog before i jog. so i bring along my shoes. i drive all the way to boon lay to find the driving centre close… then i realise my car not enough petrol! going to empty! so i drive very slowly to the nearest petrol station and top-up $50 worth of petrol. and continue my drive back to choa chu kang stadium. upon reaching, i realise i did not drink a slip of water whole day, so i ask my mum bring along my water bottle along so i can hydrate myself before i go for my jog. waited for half an hour for her to arrive, then drank some water, and went for 6 rounds. trying to make it under 12. but too bad, by the 5th round i was already 11mins plus, so i gave up and stop the time and just complete the 6 rounds. perspire like got wet in rain after the rain, rest awhile… and went home. why i didnt swim? is all because i forget to bring my goggle. without it, i am basically blind. haha.

when i reach home, i went to bath then start to play restaurant rush. feel really boring until the extend of playing this nonsense game. then at 1530h, i realise that felicia long had reply my sms. ask me if i want to join her to plaza singapura. actually i sms her first when i was waiting for my mum. then after lots of sending and replying, i went to meet her at about 1630h, but traffic jam, so i reach plaza singapure at about 5. haha. late late. i know, but not my fault, heavy traffic, raining too. left ps at about 1830, set for jurong point. then shop around jp until 2000h, and i drove wendy and her back home. i met wj for supper, so i didnt ate my dinner, and because it was raining when i send them home, i decide to come home and wait for the rain to stop, before going out again. went to balestier for supper, then came home. that end my saturday.

sunday… hmm… my mum woke me up to drive my baby sis to her speech and drama lesson. i thought she was late for school, so i rush and do everything, then my mum told me her lesson start at 1130. i rush to wait. anyway, then when i drove her to her lesson, my darling sister doesnt want to go for her lesson. she kept crying, dont know for what reason so brought her home for lunch, ate at coffee shop with my uncle. then drove to my mum’s friend house at jurong. after that came home, i read my comic and do nothing for a whole day, until dinner, cook maggie. and it end my sunday. damn sianz.

today… nothing much too. work… then came home. and online… talk to kel and dao online. disturbing each other, and that stupid kel, keep talking about… anyway… haha. after that dao left for dinner. so left me and kel. usual talk. plan to meet on 20th night for supper. should be not much problem. have to see that day can get car not. haha. if not anywhere also cannot go. only can go teck whye coffee shop. oh.. of cos not forgetting, today is her birthday. happy birthday again. since you did not reply me, i doesnt know if my message got to you in the morning. wish you happy birthday here. take care.

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long? long?? long???